As I get older, the more aware I become of time passing by. Moments come and gone. I become almost desperate for time to stand still – to be 36 forever. This was especially true at Bonnaroo this year, which we attended last weekend. It was my favorite one yet for so many reasons. We were super close to everything, the weather was mild & windy, the music was fantastic, and we had our camp area down to a science. As we knocked all of our favorite to-do’s off of the list, happiness filled my soul… but with a lingering awareness that our time there would soon end. That we would be starting the countdown to 2016 in a matter of days. I’m grateful to be on this earth with this life experience I’ve been given. I want to savor every second. Sometimes I feel like it goes by too fast.
As with most people, mortality is something that always lurks in the shadows of my mind. We will not be here forever. In 100 years, someone will look at our Bonnaroo photos as if they are an ancient thing. When I look at pictures from the past, I wonder if the subjects thought about me, right now, considering their life at that time. In a way they are still alive because I am thinking about them. Another thing I do often is try to connect with my 80-year-old self, looking back at this very moment. As weird as it sounds, I feel like I can do that. She tells me to love everyone in my life and to enjoy this special time. She says that nothing is ever as bad as it seems, and is more joyous that I realize.
I’m feeling super sappy this morning, so my apologies. Life can certainly be hard, sad, and seemingly impossible. But it’s also an ongoing opportunity to be proactive, passionate, and positive. I feel lucky to have a clear vision (most of the time) of what I want to do in this lifetime. The trick is to enjoy the journey.
Some updates! We are a little over 50% funded for The New Orleans Sazerac! This is great news since we are officially at the halfway mark of our campaign. We have 15 days left to make this project happen. We are in the middle of making our expert interview announcements, so if you haven’t already please consider following our project on Seed&Spark! If you feel inspired to share or give, that’s even more wonderful. Thank you.
I’ve been letting Electric Bleau (my feature script) rest for the last few weeks. I’m about to start tackling my grant strategy and other funding opportunities. I’ve submitted the script itself to four screenplay competitions in the hopes that someone else out there likes what I’ve written. I’m also going to start figuring out who I can collaborate with for the music components, and maybe even start looking for talent to attach to the project. All exciting things!
There are some other potential changes on the horizon that are promising. Send all the posi vibes! I promise to do the same in return.