I am really, really close to my goal.  By September 1st, I should be finished losing weight.   That makes me very happy, but also scares the living crap out of me.  For the past 5 months, this is all I have known. 

Once I reach 150(ish), I am going to give myself 2-4 weeks of a “weight maintenance” period before I jump into marathon training.   This will teach me what my base caloric intake should be without factoring in intense exercise.  The more I can learn about my body, the better.

Maybe it is a good thing that I am so freaked out by “the what happens after”.  Alarming stats always run through my head – that most people gain a large percent of their weight back within a year… that some people gain ALL their weight back within 5 years.  These are horrible numbers.  In the past, I have literally relived these stats over and over again.  Not anymore.

Today I give myself permission to relax & trust my ability to maintain my weight forever.  It is going to be OK if my weight fluctuates within a certain range.  I can have foods that I love in moderation.  It will be OK to splurge from time to time.  I believe in this new way of healthy eating & living.  I believe in myself.