When you were a child, what did you envision your future self to be like?  I remember when I was in high school everything in the future seemed so exciting and full of possibilities.  I was always able to see myself pretty accurately a few years down the road.  I knew I would be in a creative field and somehow in the public eye.  Back then I was a fine artist and got into college with a full scholarship based on my painting & drawing skills.   I was really active but hadn’t discovered running yet. I was also a really healthy weight at 142 after losing about 20 pounds my junior year.

Then I went on to college, which was especially joyous for me and yet extremely painful.  I fell in love several times over that 3 1/2 year period, and made some of my best friends for life.  I started off with an early college program at The School of the Art Institute of Chicago which really broaden my small town Alabama horizons.  A whole new world opened up before me and I met new kinds of people who opened my mind.  After that amazing summer in Chicago, I came back to Alabama at Jacksonville State University where I got my BFA in graphic design.  My weight yo-yoed over the course of college, but never got too out of hand.  I started having real weight issues once I joined the work force.

The first time my weight spiked to an alarming degree was when I moved to Georgia.  I don’t know if I felt lonely, stressed, overwhelmed, or all of the above, but I saw my weight soar up to the 180’s for the first time.  And when I moved back to Alabama a few years later, I saw my highest weight of 200 pounds on the scale.  I remember feeling hopeless and defeated.  At the time I owned my own business and was struggling to make ends meet like any other person in their mid-20’s living alone.  I’m sure my lack of coping skills at the time had a lot to do with my weight gain.

I have to say, growing older has made me wiser and more confident.  I have finally found ways to make my creativity lucrative, and I have also discovered how to take care of my body in an effective way.  I fell in love with triathlons and running in my mid to late twenties and never looked back.  My love for those sports endured no matter what the scale said back to me.  Exercise always made me feel good about myself, either through daily workouts or the occasional race.  I was never competing with anyone but myself.  I still hold on to that philosophy today!

I don’t know what I’m trying to get at for today’s post, but this morning I woke up feeling a little nostalgic.  I’ve come a long way to get to this wonderful time in my life!!  I guess I’m feeling very similar to the way I did in high school… I know there is a whole new world out there to experience.  And the vision for my future self is exactly the same!

The School of the Art Institute of Chicago - 1997