There is comfort in things that are certain.  I know in order for my hair dryer to work, I have to plug it in to the wall.  I know in order to leave our house, I will have to lock the doors to keep it safe.  I know that the sun will eventually come out when it’s cold and dark outside.  I know certain music will always make me feel better.  Other music will make it feel worse.  If I pet my cat, she will purr.  If I wear mascara, I will look prettier.  And so on.

There is excitement and even danger in things that are not certain.  If I don’t lock our doors when I leave the house, I leave it in a compromised position where someone could easily break in.  Or maybe nothing would happen at all.  If I put my indoor cat outside, she may get confused and never return again.  I find myself in a very uncertain time right now on many levels.  It’s comforting to know that it’s something we all go through.  All we can do is try to find the best path for ourselves and the ones we love.   There is beauty in the unknown, and in a way it’s what we live for.  Without change, life would be stale and boring.  Things will happen that may not feel like it’s for the best, but in the end it always is.  There is always comfort in that.

It’s a beautiful St. Patrick’s Day outside!!!  I went ahead and took the next two days off of work because I felt that my soul needed it.  It’s a great time to do so too since our office is pretty empty during Spring Break.  I’m going to spend some time with my mom in just a little bit, then hit the gym this afternoon.  Mike and I will probably do something fun later tonight to celebrate St. Patty’s Day, but not sure what quite yet.  Tomorrow morning my mom and I are going kayaking at a local state park, and I am SO EXCITED to get out there in the sunshine!  Mike will be out-of-town this weekend, and while he’s gone my friends Susan and Lee Ann will be staying with me.   

Good news: When I returned home yesterday I quickly hopped on the scale to confirm my weight and it was right where it was supposed to be.   I guess the scale I was using in Baltimore was a few pounds off not in my favor.  🙂  That was a reality check though… because it stirred up some emotions of fear that I haven’t felt in a long time.  I need to learn to give myself the benefit of the doubt, b/c I’m in a good head space now.  If the scale does go the “wrong” direction sometimes, it’s no big deal.  I can fix it because I’m healthy and active.  Plus there will always be a fluctuation and range that my body will naturally shift between.  I finally trust myself to manage and maintain my weight.  That is an amazing thing!!!