I’ve been wondering what I would write for this blog post when it was time to talk about Mike and I splitting up.  Well, today is that day.  Mike wrote his own entry last night after I went to bed, which you can read by clicking here, and the first thing I did this morning was read it.  The original plan was for me to write my own, then read his afterwards… but I couldn’t wait.  I’m glad I did too, it brought a smile to my face.

I hate the word “divorce”.  It has all kinds of negative connotations that don’t apply in our situation.  I have a very strong belief that good things don’t have to last forever for them to have been worthwhile.  Our marriage & relationship has changed me in so many positive ways I can’t even count.  If you were to ask me if I regretted a second of it, I would say no… and quite the contrary.  People change.  Relationships change.  We have choices, and for good reason.  We are never stuck – we are constantly evolving physically, emotionally, and spiritually. 

The hardest part of all of this will be the grieving.  Our main goal is to stay the best of friends, but we both know that “letting go” will be a process that we can’t predict at this time.  It will be extremely hard to come home at night and not be able to see him.  I will miss the comfort & friendship that we have with each other while living under the same roof.  I will miss the laughter & the smiles.  Sure, we will always have these things with each other, but it will be different.  We’ve had some seriously intense conversations over the past few weeks, so we did not arrive at the decision to split up lightly.  There are very strong reasons for us to end our marriage, but we will never, ever end our love for each other or our deep friendship.

I don’t know what the future holds for me, or for Mike.  But I have a feeling that we will figure out all of these emotions with time and move on with ease.  We will always have each other, and we’ve promised that no matter what we will always keep the foundation of our relationship.  I know that at any point in the future I can call him, or meet him for dinner, and it will feel exactly the same between us.  That’s a huge comfort in of itself.  I am so grateful for every second that I’ve had with that man.

So a new journey begins for the both of us.  One full of life & hope.  🙂