Did I think that this divorce was going to be easy?  Yes, I did.  We both felt the same way and the decision was clear.  Then out of the blue, it became unclear and turned into a foggy mess.  I had a really hard day yesterday which I am quickly coming to find is purely inevitable and just part of the process.  I also have really great days where I can see the bigger picture and know that everything is going to be just fine.  Emotions are beautiful, yet messy things.  They can make your life soar to new heights, or they can drop you flat on your a** just when you think things are going great.  I know that I’m an amazing person with no limits, perfectly capable of doing whatever it is I set out to do.  It’s just that I’m mourning the loss of a very important person in my life… and that’s a big effing deal.  There is no handbook or set of guidelines to follow on how to do it either.  You just have to do it minute by minute.  Yesterday was a sh*tty day, one of the worst so far actually.  But you know what made me feel better?  Running 6 miles with my friends this morning.  🙂  When we started off at 6:30, I was as low as low can be… but when we finished it was a whole new world.  I even treated myself to some liquid happiness after we finished.  I was really craving some cranberry juice, but discovered that I had left my purse at home.  So I dug up every nickel and dime I could find in my car to buy a Minute Maid Fruit Punch (with 0% Vitamin C and 100% sugar) because that was all my change could buy.  😀  And it was sooooooo worth it!

Liquid Happiness