First of all I want to say thank you for the great comments I’ve gotten over the past few weeks.  You’ve shared solid advice and great perspectives, and I’ve taken each one of them to heart.  Once again this blog has saved the day!

I did reach out to a therapist yesterday that a friend highly recommended, so I am hoping to see her either today or tomorrow.  I am really looking forward to hashing everything out – taking all of the pieces apart and putting them back together again.  It’s been almost 10 years since I’ve been to see therapist just to work on myself.  At that time I had just been diagnosed with OCD, something I’ve had since I was a child.  I was so embarrassed by my condition that no one knew for almost 7 months that I was in treatment for it.  Not my parents, not my boyfriend at the time and not even my friends.  I went through that whole ordeal all by myself.  But once I started to talk about it openly, it had a real healing effect on me… almost therapy in of itself.  Now I’m pretty open (obviously) to discuss my issues with anxiety.  I still battle with OCD from time to time, but my medication helps keep it in check.  It appears in my life now in several mild ways such as an aversion to certain numbers, counting, superstition, and annoying bedtime rituals.  Sounds freaky, eh?  I also think it plays a big role in my ability to relax, as my brain does not easily shut off.  These are all things that can be fixed or at least made better with time… so that is the good news.  And as always, and with other people too I’m sure, during times of high stress it is definitely more apparent.

My family and friends have been amazing over the past month or so while going through all of this.  I’ve come to realize that I’m loved by a lot of people, and they are willing to do whatever it takes to see me smile.  Case-in-point:  After a hard day yesterday, my mom & sisters put together a “fun bag” for me full of hysterical cheap toys and gave it to me this morning when I woke up.  😀  THANK YOU!!!  I can’t wait to use the whoopee cushion on an unsuspecting coworker today…

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My Fun Bag

With friends at the Garage yesterday!