Thanks so much to everyone who reached out in the last day or so about the passing of sweet Kitten. It’s hard to realize that it actually happened, and that it wasn’t all just a bad dream. I keep thinking that she is still around… then I have to remind myself that she is in fact gone. So strange how quickly things can change. Sometimes I feel silly for thinking and feeling this way about a cat, but she really was a special little creature that meant a great deal to me. As hard as it was to see, I am glad I was there to be with her when she went away. Mike wrote a really great blog post last night about his own memories of Kitten. You can read it here. Warning though, you will need tissue.
This was my first death to ever witness in person. I can’t imagine what it must be like to see a person you love leave forever right before your eyes. I wish I could say that there was a magical moment afterwards, that I knew it was for the best, but all I could feel was confusion and sadness for a life cut too short. My other cat, Baby Kitty, has been lost without her friend for the last few days and extra clingy to me. At some point I would like to get her another friend, but I also wonder if I could take another beloved pet dying so unexpectedly. I am sure I will suck it up and do it though, as there are so many homeless kitties out there that deserve a life like Kitten had.
In the last 24 hours I’ve thought a lot about how fragile we are. It’s amazing that our bodies function so reliably day in and day out, for such long periods of time. It’s hard to know how lucky you are until you lose something important – whether it be a furry friend, another person, or an essential part of your own being. Death is too easy. Choosing to really live is the hard part.
Yesterday while cleaning my mini house, I saw a bug flying around in the corner of my eye at the top of the staircase in the sunlight. And it wasn’t just any bug, it was a lady bug. Kitten loved a flying bug, and it made me think of her. 🙂 Maybe she sent it to let me know that she is OK.