Last night I had my monthly date with my dear friend Debbie at the J Clyde.  If possible, we always try to get the table in the bay window overlooking Cobb Lane.  Since we usually meet at 5:15 on the dot, the last of the evening light streams through and lights up our happy hour conversations.  They always have great music playing in the background too.  My Morning Jacket seemed to be the band of choice for last night’s playlist.  I’m never going to complain about that.

Since Debbie and I meet once a month, never more or less, we seem to have the exact right amount of information to catch each other up on over the last 30 days or so.  We talk about our personal lives, our professional lives and our passions.  Future game is also always included.  😀  I brought up the topic of contentment last night as it has been on my mind for the last few weeks.  I asked Debbie how important it was to her, and if she’s ever had it.  Her answer was very enlightening.  She said that she felt like most creative people are never content, that it’s in fact that state of mind that drives creativity.  Debbie said that she was about to turn 60 in 3 weeks, and there are still so many things that she wants to do.  Then she said this – “Content doesn’t sound good to me, but I am tired of feeling anxious. I just want to feel like I am on the right path.”  That was so validating for me to hear, as I relate 100%.  I think we all need the piece of mind that we are going the right direction…but the hunger of wanting more is what gets us places in life. There is nothing fun about feeling anxious, which unfortunately is a common ground for a lot of ambitious people.  So, I wonder if there is a way to turn that negative feeling into something positive?  I guess you can find peace in knowing that you are always moving forward, and while you can try to pick the path, you never really know where it’s going to take you.  We are all blindly navigating for the most part, but our internal compass is always better than we think it is.

the J. Clyde