This year more than ever I am thinking about my birthday, and what turning a year older really means in the grand scheme of things.  It isn’t necessarily that I’m afraid or sad, quite the opposite.  Turning 34 has always been a weird thought for me… as growing up I never really planned past that age.  It’s as if all major life events would have happened to me by now.  😉 hahaha I am more than happy to realize though that most of my biggest experiences and moments are yet to come… a pleasant turn of events.  It may have been a mini early/mid-thirties life crisis, but in the end it helped me to realize that age is in fact just a number.  At any age you can do a lineup of folks and see a broad range of perspectives, which then reflects on how old the person really feels.  If you feel over and done, then others will perceive you that way as well.  If you feel alive and young with an optimistic future, then you will always have that glow in your spirit no matter the number of your physical body.  I need to remember too that while growing up, I always looked forward to being in my 30’s.  I imagined it to be a time in my life where everything fell into place for me.  And in a lot of ways, it has.  I still think that we aren’t taught to look forward to other decades though.  You don’t hear many people saying, “Dang… I can’t wait to be 60!”, when they are still 30-something.  I don’t know how to change that way of thinking, either.  My grandmother is always reading books that talk about the reasons why life gets better as we get older.  It’s probably all in making peace with how your body ages… because you are always the same person on the inside.  In fact, I do believe you probably get better and better with time.

There is also another way to look at it:  maybe 30 somethings (and beyond) don’t look forward to other decades because they’ve learned the value of living in the here and now.  Does it really matter what I will be doing 10 years from now, if I’m not acting on my happiness at this very moment?  Probably not.  I think the answer boils down to this: making peace with who you are on the inside and outside at every point in the game.  Do you feel good about where you are?  Do you like the people who are around you?  Do you feel excited, happy and joyful more often that not?  Then you are probably doing something right.  When I look at it that way, I am more than grateful to be the person I am today at almost 34… and in the years to come.

New running shoes!

New running shoes!

A day on a farm.

A day on a farm.